Merry Christmas

Yep, I decided to update today...Christmas day. Why..? I don't know.. I thought about updating a few days ago and I decided against it just because I really didn't feel like writing.

So, what to update on...well, the typical stuff I guess. It's cold outside and my legs ache and are full of pain. I went out the other day, I had to drive to the drug store to pick up a prescription, the drug store is only a 5 minute drive from home. I was gone a total of maybe 15 to 20 minutes and when I got home, my legs felt like hell.

Also, I think my body is used to the pain meds I'm on, because half the time I swear that they don't do a thing anymore. It's obviously more evident now in the cold and winter time. I have an appointment with my pain doc at the end of January...time to talk to him about that.

My episodes....yeah, those damn episodes...I've honestly relinquished myself to the fact that if/when they get as bad as they have the last two times I'm going to let my wife take me to the hospital and let them admit me. Why..? Because I know I am terribly dehydrated for one, and two, maybe, just maybe, I'll find a doc that takes an interest in the situation and happens on something that just might stop them. I can only hope. Seriously though, the last couple of times I have been miserable, the vomiting now is really what is taking it's toll on me. I'm not nauseous at all, it's just that the vomiting hits me five to six times during the four or five day duration of these episodes and it comes out of nowhere.

Leg cramps...not that they are coming around more often, it's just that when they hit, they hurt like a son of a bitch...I had one a few days ago and it literally brought me to tears it hurt so bad and I had a hell of a time getting it to go away.

The last couple of months I have had the weirdest sensations on the bottoms of my feet. It feels like my socks are bunched up inside my shoes and bunched up between my toes. The feeling makes my crazy so I'll sit down and take my shoes off and of course my socks are fine. I'll take my socks off and rub my feet for a minute and put my socks and shoes back on and they are okay for a short while but within 15 minutes the sensation is back and within 30 minutes it's back to the point to where it's really bugging me. I'm at the point now that it's happened so often that I try to ignore it but sometimes I just can't. There are times that I will swear for sure that my socks are bunched in between my toes, I'll swear that I can feel it, but their not. What to do..???

Anyway, today is Christmas...I was awake early this morning, 4:00am. My legs were hurting. I was awake early yesterday at 4:00am also but yesterday I thought I had an episode starting. Thank goodness it seems it was a false alarm. Anyway, I'm tired. Exhausted actually.
But today was a wonderful day...so far anyway. Regardless of all the TM goings on...I was in a very good mood and very happy. I truly think I was filled with the Christmas spirit.
So, perhaps that is why I decided to do my update now. The time felt right.

I think that's about all to update for now....
So, to close, a little music.
A beautiful piece by Mannheim Steamroller, Silent Night.



Merry Christmas..!!

Till Next Time......